Last...

...September 6, I posted a message for you...

It's December 27 today, two days after Christmas. So much has changed... but not what I feel about you. And I'm so jealous because you're growing closer with Rezielle, and farther away from me. I don't know, maybe she's the same case with Trizzia, but I'm thinking she has feelings for you.


You really have me hangin' by a thread here, maybe it'd be better if you could just cut it for me, please?

jljose

sana makapunta ka sa birthday ko

you don't know a thing about me

you have no right whatsoever to say that to me! we haven't even been together that long yet! how could you have said that?! that was so totally uncalled for...

she told me that the reason i loved reading and watching sappy books & movies was also the same reason i hate seeing sappy couples together. she told me it was because i couldn't face the fact that i have once been and still am a victim of deprivation from this madness...

i was so offended by what you said.. that was all too much for you to say.. why couldn't you just shut your mouth up, you ruined the day, we we're all having so much fun already.. why did you have to bring that up... i was just joking about the yucky-mooshi stuff... that was unnecessary...

it hasn't even been a year yet since i first met you, not enough time for you to know me well.. but then again, of all the anger i'm feeling right now, i guess you ARE right.

jlj

i still love you.
...

anyone

HELP... PLEASE??

STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN OVER HIM.. really

jonas luna jose

it's just so sad that you still don't reply to my messages... nangangamusta na nga lang ako eh... :(
nothing has changed, i still love you with all my heart

ella grace ilejay

thank you for clearing things up for me.. you really are a brave true friend... thanks for finding out the truth i was searching for.. you have always been there for me, but now, you have proven yourself better than what i expected of you.. you truly are just so marvelous! i never thought that you would do that for me, that you would confront him and tell him everything i wanted to tell him. and now, i have my truth... problem now is, how do i solve it? my professor said that we computer science students are not supposed to go after the results, instead, the processes/solutions that would produce a meaningful result.. we develop algorithm, pseudocode and all those other stuff.. when it comes to program algo, i'm good.. but with this kind of problem? i don't think i'm up for it.. i'd probably get a 3.0 grade here
.. still need your help lola


loved you even more coz of this lola!

jonas

sorry na.. patawarin mo na ko, lumayo lang ako kasi akala ko niloloko mo na ko... mahal na mahal pa rin kita.. sobra.. sana bumalik na tayo sa dati, gusto ko rin namang maramdaman kung anong pakiramdam kapag 'tayo'... mahal pa rin kita, sobra


if only you could get to read this.. if only.. :c

message to self

you are one stupid little prick.. you just don't know when to stop, do you? i am scared for you.. you are getting too much engrossed with that problem of yours... have some time for yourself, have some time for your friends and forget that your stubborn little feelings even exist! he is nice and all that, but he isn't everything...

jonas luna jose

you still love her.. and for some reason that's not clear to me, you two decided not to be in a relationship... i know now that you don't love me afterall... but i still can't let you go... it just hurts so much

anonymous

second message to an anonymous person... different person, different gender from the first one, same barkada...
it seems that going on invisible mode is becoming a habit for you... is it because you find my (our?!) messages unwelcome... is it because you think you're too good for me (once again, us?!) now, just because.. oops! nope! i can't put the reason here, or else the 'anonymous' tag would be useless. you're always, how do i call it? 'outside the service area'... don't tell me it's because you're always uhm.. okay.. it'll be another give away if i say the word... maybe in time, i'll tell you personally that something IS wrong..

jonas (my message to him on friendster)

ui.. glit k b skin or sumthin.. i'm always online.. nkikita q pag nagoonline k.. bt k ndi nagrereply?? kakalungkot nmn..dretchuhin mu nlng aq qng ayw mu nang mkrinig ng khit ano gling skin...

the feeling that i said was once there IS still in my heart, it hasn't changed one bit.. u can't imagine how i've been feeling for the past 3 or 4 years... and my friends (yes! my HS friends.. u know them) tell me to move on, but i can't.. coz i want to hear the hurtful words from u 1st b4 i do anything rash

are u just unintentionally 4getting 2 open ur msgs or is this really ur way of saying goodbye to me? i'm just askin u to tell me the truth.. so that MAYBE, just maybe i can go on with my life... and finally stop expecting sumthin that is never going to happen in a million lifetimes

u wanna know what happened back in san juan? about that time u asked me b4 d sportsfest if i was mad at u or sumthin, that tym i stormed down the fray juan stairs ryt pass u & ur friends... i heard a 'rumor' from 1 of my classm8s that u were courting some1 from ur class.. okay that was d real reason i got mad.. not just bcoz i was getting jealous of your newly found friends.. so, was that 'rumor' true afterall? and do you have sum1 special in particular ryt now? .. just wanted 2 know

i hope u answer this one
6/15/07 - 10:57pm

anonymous

ganyan ka talaga umpisa pa lang eh noh..
oo ng oo, oo ng oo... pero wala ka namang ginagawa sa mga sinasabi mo
just to shut me up?
mabait ka naman e. kaibigan pa nga kita eh. problema lang talaga sayo yan
basta.. bahala na

jonas luna jose

alam mo bang humindi ako sa gala ng barkada ko, para mapayagan sa birthday mo... ate mo pa nagimbita sakin.. tapos sinabihan ako bigla ni ate jena ngayon na 3 or 4 nalang daw ako pumunta, si jervis naman wag na daw ako pumunta... tinext kita.. dapat pala hindi nalang.. kasama mo na naman si trizzia..

tapos nagtext ka.. miss mo pa naman ako? sige.. lalo mo pa kong pa-asahin... dyan ka naman magaling eh.. b*llsh*t jonas! alam mo ba araw araw na lang yan ang problema ko? nagiging drama queen ako dahil sayo! kahit ako naiinis sa sarili ko dahil naartehan ako sa sarili ko.. para lang sa lalake, nagkakaganito ako...

dahil sayo baka madami na ngayong galit sa kin... eh ang gusto ko lang naman na sabihin mo sa kin kung ano yung totoo.. kung minhal mo ba talaga ako o nagpanggap ka lang kasi naawa ka sakin.. ano ba kasing motibo mo't pinapahirapan mo ko

jonas luna jose

i'm still scared of what might happen tomorrow. i'm having doubts right now if i should go and risk my heart to be broken shattered into pieces, then again, things may come out just the way i want them. in any case, i know my friends are around for me. eunice and jelai will be there tomorrow. i hope this works!

why do you have to make me go through all of this? i hope tomorrow i'd finally whip up the courage to say everything that has been bugging me for the past 5 years between you and i

first thing's first

keep in mind that i did not ask you to go to this blog.. are we clear on that?